21 maybe.A retirement
colleague9.“Dream the impossible dream.” As
if retirement were an intensive profession of the individualistic, Harv looks
to having a colleague who, forexample, reads web sites and uses e-mail – an indication of her coping
with ever higher technology and life-long learning. She might have an open- air
web site or other writing that evidences her outgoing life time. Some art form
or career endeavor is likely highlighting her life.(notes beyond 20 but not yet 21)
20.a Florida home 7.Enlisted by a one-year old and
three-year old, Harv enjoys being a classic grandpa into 2007. (notes for 20)
19.SW FL ‘tropics’8.Harv plays social and duplicate bridge
on Marco Island and perhaps will do so in Naples. In Naples, he has a Crystal
Ballroom membership that offers instructions and open dancing Tuesday through
Friday. (notes
for 19)
18.Gentle manThe year of 2006 birthed an even less complicated personal card with three bullets – (1) the cyberspace Doc,
(2) recognition of his life-long wondering and wandering, and (3) the gentle man to himself. (notes for 18)
17.Gentleman hostAfter
several months of ‘hosting’ beginning-ballroom dance students, and after again being dismissed from family cooperation (a seemingly
lifelong pattern), Harv reinforced his focus on delimiting the singles’
marketplace via his personal card – (1) the Doc in preliminary e-mail contact,
(2) recognition of Harv’s traveling character especially when encountering
offensive conditions (a definite lifelong pattern), (3) the seeming maturation
of the Gentleman Host cultural role (via Google search), and (4) the specific
iteration of Harv’s socialization preference for the niceties of dance and
conversation. Harv’s availability for family conversation and eagerness to help
continues. Harv looks to actualize that gentle man to his self. (notes for 17)
16.Lifelong essenceThinking
‘better’ all the time; to enjoy ‘functioning aesthetic niceties’ - perhaps the
practical facet of life-long learning - exhausting the delimits of several religious (spiritual) educations; possibly equating
to the attainment of liberal arts stature, specifically Abstract Science. (notes for 16)
15.Mobile homingNot including car,
inflatable kayak, and folding bicycle; Harv’s ‘wholly’ assets can now fit into a coffin sized space. Thus, he
becomes more fully prepared for his super-life after death (the current weekly
closure variety). (notes
for 15)
14.Retirement post PhD…7.An
open, low profile, at peace, smiling, melodious (even whistling), “labor to
leisure” solidification; ‘made easy’ in the sunny and lightening prone sub-tropics, pursuing the application of scientific method to the
case study of Harv’s life time. (notes for 14)
Harv’s past
13.Initially retiredMinimalism-optimized to facilitate ‘easy’ Everlasting Travel to
‘push’ intellectual warmth yet avoid the lightening strikes of a stormy world. (notes for 13)
12.Philosophy Doctor of…6.Joy,
love, and freeing for self, another, and others. (notes for 12)
11.Exercise Super
health of body; to support super health of mind, within the calculus of an
ever-expanding better world. (notes for 11)
10.Music and allegoryOldies move the dance muscles, classical and jazz soothe,
and comedic storytellers provoke thought and emotions. (notes for 10)
9.Spiritual depth Inspirationally ‘wholly’; avoiding redundant religious ritual and
other confines of traditional arrangements, especially unilateral pre
arrangements to include stereotyping. (notes for 9)
8.Post-marriage5.Doc Harv Otto emerges; even in
Europe. (notes
for 8)
7.Marriage4.A lesson in choosing righteous wrongs – that heavenly road,
‘perfect’ in its journey – plus six family vacations spidered across the United
States in every direction. (notes for 7)
6.Bachelor
of…and Master of…3. In the
‘beginning’; captivated by never-ending creativity, logic, and opportunity. (notes for 6)
5.Late teens The
anchor, bartender, and pin setting-machines maintainer knighted as Happy Harv,
making pocket money at playing gin, loan sharking, and bowling. (notes for 5)
4.Teens Threw up at his first/last football practice; skipped final
exams one year – nobody noticed; another year rode bicycle across the city to
school; played lots of Sheepshead; set pins with a work permit; worked at
school for tuition; did major maintenance summers, 10 hour days, six days a
week, walked to the “Violet” three nights a week for six movies and shorts.
Declined job offer with the cathedral’s decorating artist. Enjoyed heat
lightening, and the ‘hike’ to Walgreen’s for the pint. (notes for 4)
3.Pre teen Worked summers on the farm, and worked support for the dance
hall bar, some nights filling the extensive serving coolers three times, plus
tapping many kegs; alley draining in winter; walked out of fifth grade – had to
apologize to the class the next day; reworked a set of storm windows for the
‘new’ apartment; quarter-mastered his Boy Scout troop; Sunday mornings alone at
the beach, and buying milk from Dutchland Dairy across town, both via public
transportation. (notes
for3)
2.Latchkey kid2.Tallest of the neighborhood gang – with ball bats, walking
‘short cuts’, alley ash-can picking, roof hopping, and bottle cap collection at
the ready. (notes
for 2)
1.Preschool1. Sailor suit smile continues to this day. One-day back then,
alone, he simply walked several blocks away, crossing streets to watch the kids
at his future kindergarten. Then later, another day - “Connie, where’s Harv? At
kindergarten. No, he’s not – he’s down the block playing in the neighbor’s
sandbox.” He also remembers de-stoning semi tires with a screwdriver, ‘fishing’
the Blue Hole, and ‘flying’ with the Northwestern 400. (notes for 1)
Harv’s future
In ‘retirement’, Harv’s Reunion Vehicle (RV) travels
the U.S., staying where ‘moved’ (called/challenged), to pursue warmth, and to
explore the beauty of nature et al, especially the inners and outers of
socializers on and off the trails (paved or wet) - all with his Gentleman Host
predilection. After decades of minimalism, the hatchback RV houses all physical
assets, including tuxedo and patent shoes, hiking shoes, dancing dress boots,
folding bicycle, inflatable kayak [ousted in June 2006], focused computing
power, dwindling personal papers, and few remaining “Fix Up Artist” tools.
His mobile home self ‘moves’ closer to –
A.Associated young spirits8.Besting no-talk, sharing
encouragement life time, and webbing non-fiction.
B.A super-self lady (notes for 17a)8.Significantly actualized in her own mind and actions:
single or with a household.
He welcomes his self to increased transparency in his
world of Happy Harv, calling it wording if not writing.
Notes
Notes beyond 20 but
not yet 21 – Harv has conversed with other single operatives about their
picking and choosing specific retirement activities for their overall fulfillment
– not hoping to find all of their interests shared by one mate. In Harv’s case,
he dreams to have a colleague who shares talking and walking, bridge
partnering, and dance partnering. Her talking may even have morphed into
nonfiction wording perhaps supported by photography. The bridge game would be
one-table social discussion evenings with another couple. Dancing may be
square, non-competitive ballroom, Old English, or even Western.
With
making this statement, Harv will perhaps find avenues for matching facilitation
– but more importantly, he will continue his bridge play, dancing practice, and
wording for personal fulfillment, be it less than super but adequate. His walks
will be alone with camera at the ready. Talking will continue at the ready to those
expressing curiosity – especially at McDonald’s. Marco Island friendships will
probably increase.
The month of April 2006 provided Harv with ‘all those
being-single fulfillment activities’ and most importantly a super health
actualization for his remaining retirement. Perhaps Harv is now ready for ‘mate
qualification’, that is, he now runs his well-rounded independent life style as
a single person thinking that the coupled life style could be a step up in
social niceties.
April 2006 bestowed upon Harv a wellness that rivals, let’s say, his early 1970s
period (included FL trips to Miami ocean races and familiarization with
engineering facilities on the Gulf plus a three week four weekend family
vacation to Disney World and the Everglades with many alightments along the way
– also similar vacations to the Pacific Ocean and to the Grand Canyon). Filling
the gap from that early 1970s wellness, the late 1970s brought the increasing
stress of career ‘success’ that eventually became personally unmanageable with
his traditional internal and external support structure. The early 1980s
brought his job zenith, mid-life crisis, and divorce/annulment that ended his
twenty-one year attempt at marriage ‘forever’. From the late 1980s, Harv has been critically thinking about
his world (even took a AYH sailing ‘cruise’ in the FL Gulf), began
another career in education, entered the world of PhD study, and taught college
capping courses in WV, DE, and KS. Then he unknowingly retired in 1990,
realized in 1997 that he had enough finances to retire, responded to a family
building challenge in 1998 and chased the extended family dream through 2005.
In April 2006,
there is conclusion in Harv’s personal
life – health, climate, bridge, and dancing.
CRITICAL THINKING: noun: the mental process
of actively and skillfully conceptualizing, applying, analyzing, synthesizing,
and evaluating information to reach an answer or conclusion. Source: Webster's New Millennium
Dictionary of English, Preview Edition (v 0.9.6) 2003-2005 Lexico Publishing.
CRITICAL: adjective: 1a: of, relating to, or
being a turning point or specially important [Marco] juncture <critical phase>: as (1):
relating to or being the stage of a disease at which an abrupt change for
better or worse may be expected; also: being or relating to an illness or
condition involving danger of death <critical care>; (2): relating to or
being a state in which or a measurement or point at which some quality,
property, or phenomenon suffers a definite change <critical temperature>; b: CRUCIAL, DECISIVE <critical
test>; c: INDISPENSABLE, VITAL <a critical waterfowl habitat> <a
component critical to the operation of a machine>; d: being in or
approaching a state of crisis <a critical shortage> <a critical
situation>; 2a: inclined to criticize severely and unfavorably; b:
consisting of or involving criticism <critical writings>; also: of or
relating to the judgment of critics <the play was a critical success>; c:
exercising or involving careful judgment or judicious evaluation; d: including variant readings
and scholarly emendations
<a critical edition>; 3: characterized by risk or uncertainty; 4a: of
sufficient size to sustain a chain reaction -- used of a mass of fissionable
material; b: sustaining
a chain reaction -- used of a nuclear reactor; - criticality noun; - critically
adverb; - criticalness noun; synonyms CRITICAL, HYPERCRITICAL, FAULTFINDING,
CAPTIOUS, CARPING, CENSORIOUS mean inclined to look for and point out faults
and defects. CRITICAL may also imply an effort to see a thing clearly [Harv] and truly in order to
judge it fairly <a critical essay>. HYPERCRITICAL suggests a tendency to
judge by unreasonably strict standards <hypercritical disparagement of other
people's work>. FAULTFINDING implies a querulous or exacting temperament
<a faultfinding reviewer>. CAPTIOUS suggests a readiness to detect
trivial faults or raise objections on trivial grounds <a captious
critic>. CARPING implies an ill-natured or perverse picking of flaws <a
carping editorial>. CENSORIOUS implies a disposition to be severely critical
and condemnatory <the censorious tone of the review>. synonym see in
addition ACUTE. (m-w.com).
Harv popped himself out of those two life phases of
‘perfect’ marriage and ‘loving’ education industry as if he were popping a fly
cocoon out of a cow’s back. Stepping on those cocoons gave little elevation to
his inner stature that began as a bastard child raised by an angry
single-parent mother. For his ‘benefit’, there were the parochial teachers with their gnostic flair
that reached back over the Dark Ages to the third century to connect with the
Greek and Egyptian cultures, among others – they strove not to be separate from other humans. They
provided the seed for Harv’s freeing and wording actualizations and the
mainsail for Harv’s retirement life joy-love-freeing actualizations with
self-another-others.
Most recently in 2006, he discovered the world of
tropical campground socialization and moved on to the challenges of the Marco
Island and Naples scene, specifically duplicate bridge and a ballroom dance
membership – both unexpected but not altogether unplanned. His present
retirement life budded with the 2006 New Year and flowered in all its ‘beauty’
in the wellness month of April 2006. Harv had worked long and hard for this
personal actualization and defended it several times within that month – for
free-will Happy Harv fits few stereotypes that others choose for him.
Discounting the stereotyping, he prized the open air attribute of those social discussions. He
was not separate from his critics.
The snowbirds will soon be gone from the Island and
Harv will settle into a routine of Monday and Friday afternoon bridge, dance
lessons and possible open dancing Tuesday through Friday, Garrison Keillor
Saturday, laundry Sunday, and hopefully several beach hikes during the week.
Computer use and WiFi Internet are a daily occurrence. So goes Harv’s single
life time.
That routine bases upon some general observations -
(1) he literally lives in the tropical Real Florida, ten miles from his ‘confluence’,
in the season when most campers have abandoned the Southwest Florida Parks, (2)
his minimalist RV functions better than ever, permitting Harv to play bridge
nine miles from his ‘confluence’ and dance ‘out of his hatchback car’ – perhaps
40 square feet encompassing his entire asset set – never more to expand, (3)
his Crystal Ballroom membership provides a dance scene that bests all the
others he has encountered across the United States, yet it is a mere six miles
from his ‘confluence’, (4) bridge play for the summer divides equally between
social and duplicate, both providing continued opportunity for learning, and
(5) moving his squander meter ‘needle’ toward 100% is definitely his biggest
challenge.
Many years have been spent learning the art of making
more self-responsible personal choices for his actualizations to directly feed
his joy-love-freeing aim. Perhaps now he is best able for the another-others
part of his philosophic aim of joy-love-freeing for self-another-others. He is
curious about the way that he will near double his spending on himself.
Definitions are a part of critical thinking – the use
of several dictionaries and a thesaurus reveals even more.
COLLEAGUE: n: 1: an associate you work with (syn:
co-worker, fellow worker, workfellow); 2: a person who is member of your class
or profession; "the surgeon consulted his colleagues"; "he sent
e-mail to his fellow hackers" (syn: confrere, fellow). Source: WordNet
2.0, 2003 Princeton University).
DOER: n: a person who acts and gets things done;
"he's a principal actor in this affair"; "when you want
something done get a doer"; "he's a miracle worker" (syn: actor,
worker). Source:
WordNet 2.0, 2003 Princeton University.
COLLEAGUE: thesaurus: noun: a fellow worker
<on her first day at work her colleagues went out of their way to make her
feel welcome>; Synonyms associate, coworker; Related Words equal, fellow, peer;
accomplice, ally, cohort, collaborator, confederate, partner; buddy, chum,
companion, comrade, crony, pal; compatriot, countryman. (m-w.com).
CO-: pref.: Together; joint; jointly;
mutually: coeducation. Partner or associate in an activity: coauthor;
cofounder. Subordinate or assistant: copilot. To the same extent or degree:
coextensive. Complement
of an angle: cotangent. Source: The American Heritage Dictionary of the English
Language, Fourth Edition 2000 by Houghton Mifflin.
ASSOCIATE: verb: transitive senses: 1: to
join as a partner, friend, or companion; 2 obsolete: to keep company with:
ATTEND; 3: to join or connect together: COMBINE; 4: to bring together or into
relationship in any of various intangible ways (as in memory or imagination);
intransitive senses: 1: to come or be together as partners, friends, or companions;
2: to combine or join with other parts: UNITE; synonym see JOIN. (m-w.com).
COMPANION: thesaurus: noun: 1a: person
frequently seen in the company of another <the companions of one's youth>
-- see ASSOCIATE 1; 2: one that accompanies another for protection, guidance,
or as a courtesy <took a companion to the ball> -- see ESCORT; 3: either
of a pair matched in one or more qualities <a sketch that is a companion to
the original drawing> -- see MATE 1; 4: something that is found along with
something else <the report and its companion recommendations> -- see
ACCOMPANIMENT. (m-w.com).
COMPLEMENT: n.: Something that completes, makes up a
whole, or brings to
perfection. Usage Note: Complement and compliment, though quite distinct
in meaning, are sometimes confused because they are pronounced the same. As a
noun, complement means “something that completes or brings to perfection” (The
antique silver was a complement to the beautifully set table); used as a verb
it means “to serve as a complement to.” The noun compliment means “an
expression or act of courtesy or praise” (They gave us a compliment on our
beautifully set table), while the verb means “to pay a compliment to.” Source:
The American Heritage Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth Edition 2000
by Houghton Mifflin..
The purpose of these notes was to push Harv’s foresight
as to what could come into Harv’s future – the assumptions being (a) no-job not
even for zero pay, (b) no-saving of monthly retirement income, and (c) gifting
of all wealth not generating monthly retirement income. The next financing
review comes with year 2013 bond maturity – the same year as Harv’s statistical
death. This scenario challenges Harv with ‘his good life’ for the coming seven
years – a seemingly long time to double his spending on himself. He does not
need any help in actualizing that!future
Notes for 20 – Harv asks himself, “For how long? And what’s next?”
Perhaps the 12th edition of his web sites will elucidate. In the
meantime, it’s nice to have a home – however, the ‘home’ does not replace his
re-creation vehicle nor his home caring. For examples, the re-creation vehicle (mobile
home) has been currently used for a several day and overnight get-away, and many
home caring weeks have already been scheduled into 2007. Thus his RV has the
potential of a second Marco Island season but not the immediate probability.
His intermediate-term retirement life will be dominated by frequent interfaces
with four Baldwin Park individuals and scheduled home cares – with his Motel 6 re-sorts
on the decline if not already eliminated. If Marco Island does have a second
season, it may well be years away rather than months away. In any case Harv can
easily react – for his lifetime of flexibility continues to serve him well. His
appreciation of his flexibility/minimalism has grown over the recent decades.
The devil then comes in the details – daily schedule
negotiation, home care commitments, and the tweaking/maintenance of his forever-dwindling
asset set. Pushing the ill-health-chase as far into the future as reasonable,
Harv continues to work a health maintenance regiment for the purpose of increasing
his lifetime/life-time quantity/quality.
A growing undercurrent is that Harv’s lady-chase
hard-wiring continues to wane. However, his ballroom dance aim remains more so
than his bridge aim – Dance Orlando may be an opportunity for his future.
Notes for 19 –
Although the second quarter of 2005 was mentioned below as having marginal
health, the second quarter of 2006 began with a super clinic visit that
confirmed control of Harv’s decades of hypertension, a loss of 17 pounds, and
the plummet of cholesterol to 124. “What a difference a year makes.” Harv’s RV
has become his ‘neat’ little home – perhaps 40 square feet. “That’s
minimalism.” ‘Deer fly’ attire appears to be long pants and long sleeve shirts
– an adjustment yet to be made. “So far, so good.” Harv’s camping life style
has been successful – several days of leg discomfort brought thoughts of
further modifications to the RV to provide a full-length sleeping area. “Not
necessary yet.” Thus, Harv has a mobile home that moves to warmth.
On Marco Island, that warmth has come from Sandy/Bill
via McDonald’s. Harv now plays frequent bridge and ballroom dances on the
Island – more of the former than the latter. Bridge study has lagged to the
gain of tonal life quality – that means attention to Harv’s broader life
quality evidenced in his web sites. For example, GPS bicycling was attended
instead of studying more bridge. However, Goren 1985 and Bridge Baron are at
the ready. Thus, Harv’s actualizations have aligned with his web sites front
page – just the accomplishment he was seeking when he started his functional
organization case study chronicled/supported by his web sites beginning in
2000. In Harv’s life he wanted to achieve, “A place for every life experience
and every life experience in its place.” In short, several trips to California,
Wisconsin, Ohio, and an Orlando grandpa room with his son have brought him to
this RV re-creation and retirement life location. “And there’s more to come.”future
Excess wealth distributions continue via gifts to the
kids. Bond wealth will continue to provide retirement income (9.25%) until
2013. Including that bond income, Harv’s newly invented squander meter is
running at 60% - his aim is to spend more for his, and only his benefit. His
assumption is that his recent super-health find will continue into the
intermediate term (2013). Any excess wealth retention by his squander meter
running at less than 100% will be promptly gifted to the kids. Lisa’s 2006 gift
is already funded thus; the squander shortfall gifting will begin again with
Chris.
Notes for 18 –
Christmas Eve 2005 ended the idea of a grandpa room for Harv. In a tortured
sense, Harv was already leaving town to reinvent statewide travel – the in-between
of recent Central Florida inter-region travel and his many twenty-first century
north-south and east-west crossings of the United States. The life flow of
traveling out-of-town, camping, encountering a traditional holiday dinner,
socializing, reconnecting to the Central Florida area, home caring in DeBary,
and focusing on health needs have been invigorating. Harv’s self is
evidentially better.
COMPLICATED: adjective: 1: consisting of
parts intricately combined; 2: difficult to analyze, understand, or explain;
synonym see COMPLEX; - complicatedly adverb; - complicatedness noun.
COMPLICATE: transitive verb: 1: to combine
especially in an involved or inextricable manner; 2: to make complex or
difficult; 3: INVOLVE; especially: to cause to be more complex or severe <a
virus disease complicated by bacterial infection>. (M-W.com).
Harv has noted the current (third quarter 2005) TLCJ
scenario for his Grandpa’s Room – a model in Baldwin Park fits their profile.
Harv does not see how that scenario will come to be but Chris seems confident.
In Harv’s TC and TLC Williamsburg periods, he speculated that the Grandpa Room
would be this decade – 2009 would put him at age 71. From the third quarter of
2005, Harv takes the “another month to live” approach to his remaining
lifetime. Harv responsibly sees possibility of death in his near future due to
his marginal health of the second quarter in 2005. In this sense, Harv is “out
of lifetime” and needs to immediately face his immediate future weeks and
months in terms of immediate joy, love, and freedom of self, another, and
others. He seems to feel a lot better for having learned the primacy of
self-joy, self-love, and self-freedom along with his responsibility for another
and others – that took him a lifetime to learn. He has more words about these
notes. In a different tact, his joy, love, and freedom for self does not wait
for the Grandpa Room period – he takes the tact of being responsible for
today’s joy, love, and freedom of self and of late, he has experienced that he
is worth a lot more to the another and others that he deals with each day doing
his choice of 2005 – that of ballroom dance, being a gentleman host, and being
closer to becoming a Gentleman Host.
“Another
month to live” on a daily lifetime basis - with an abrupt end to the TLCJH
nouveau family (three very brief conversations in perhaps a month), Harv
focused upon what is important to his self in the July 2005 scene without
family conversation for which he carries the family cell phone 24/7. With a recent
turn to again touching upon super health, Harv exhilarates through bicycle
riding without ill effects based on recently learned salt control whereby his
heart is evidenced as healthy. He attributes past leg and heart muscle
complaints to not enough salt consumption at appropriate times. Bicycling, even
around rain events, will again be the key to a lower BMI – currently at 29 with
38 pants. Beyond bicycling, even ballroom dancing “out of the car” has become
effective for Harv, as well as college activities as time permits. Even wording
and growth have returned with exuberance. Thus Harv lives in getting through
another month, doing exactly what provides the joy, love, and freedom for self,
another, and others.
Notes for 17 – Using Harv's Apple Dashboard dictionary and thesaurus to
divine the spirit of Harv’s nouveau personal card, that is, Doc, traveler
extraordinaire, gentleman host, dance and conversation ---
Traveler - a person who is traveling
(tourist, sightseer, visitor [guest], wanderer [wonderer], drifter, migrant
[searching for worth and emotional warmth]).
Traveling - going from place to place.
Harv's life re-creations have taken him from one
life-place to another life-place. He embarked upon his autobiographical web
site to understand these ‘place to place’ travels – re-creations as he calls
them.
Travels - journeys, especially long or exotic ones.
Travel [functionality] - designed so as to be
sufficiently compact for use on a journey. Journeys are the specific acts of
traveling from one place to another.
Harv's life re-creations are journeys. In his life
re-creations and life phases Harv wants to journey toward joy, love, and
freedom; away from the opposites of sad, hate, and fear.
Extraordinaire - outstanding or remarkable in
a particular capacity [to travel]. From 1940s French for extraordinary.
Extraordinary - very unusual.
Exotic - attractive or striking because out
of the ordinary (foreign, tropical, imported, ANTONYM native; faraway, far-flung, distant, ANTONYM
familiar, nearby; striking, unusual, unconventional, out of the ordinary, outlandish, orchidaceous; offbeat;
off the wall, ANTONYM conventional).
Harv has imported Jesus' love and functional
organization into his life - he has been called a minimalist. The 'vow of
poverty' in Harv's religious background has a direct translation into his
well-financed secular
minimalism.
Minimal - very little, the least (possible),
ANTONYM maximum.
Funny - causing laughter or amusement,
humorous; difficult to understand, strange.
Since his teens, Harv has had the nickname of Happy
Harv. If Harv is misunderstood and considered strange, he journeys onward in
the enjoyment of dance and selective
conversation where love brings respect, encouragement, and challenge.
Selective - relating to or involving the
selection of the most suitable or best qualified, tending to choose carefully,
affecting some things and not others, in Electronics operating at or responding
to a particular frequency [and not some others].
Harv's frequency of life is joy, love, and freedom for
self, another, and others with now a more explicit emphasis upon Doc, traveler
extraordinaire, his life long role of gentleman host, and the functions of
dance and conversation. Amen.
Orchidaceous - of, relating to, or denoting
plants of the orchid family.
Harv has orchidaceous beauty to the 'eyes' of some
beholders where he seeks
more.
Seek - attempt to find (something), attempt
or desire to obtain or achieve (something), ask for (something) from someone,
search for and find someone or something.
In 2005, Harv has found and now continues to aim to
find more conversation within the family and extended family.
Offensive - causing someone to feel deeply
hurt or upset.
Harv cares not for the ‘causal blame' in the foregoing
definition - if Harv was 'caused' to feel some combination of sad, hate, and
fear, then Harv is responsible for changing his direction - the opportunity for
conversation being an essential for Harv. On the family side, the power for
conversation lay within his kid's families – thus he waits to be included again
into the availability of family conversation. Unfortunately, availability
translates into null conversation. Thus Harv 'needs a life' beyond the family -
ironic since he would prefer to invest time and energies into family building
(hierarchical growth and freedom). While 'on call' from family, Harv
participates in the niceties of his personal cards’ direction - (the nouveau
card) Doc, traveler extraordinaire, gentleman host, dance and conversation -
(the previous card of years) the smile with every signing, the tuxedo picture,
his life philosophy, and his website.
Perhaps Harv will now lose weight in earnest - along
with recouping from his tumble over the hood of a car that violated his
sidewalk bicycling space despite pea-whistle alerts thus challenging both
drivers to sharpen their defensive driving skills. Major bicycle repairs or a
new bicycle is required. Sixty-seven year-old Harv immediately picked himself
off the pavement where he fell from the hood impact and walked back four miles
to the motel while half carrying the wrecked bicycle. Hours later, one foot
seemed the worst off with a substantial bruise, and the other knee doubled in
size - a several day lay-up will perhaps provide healing in parallel with the
opportunity to do some long delayed wording and web site development.
Notes for 17a - Through beginning dance lessons, some widows have been setting
themselves apart from the singles’ scene that scares ‘the hell’ out of Harv.
Harv is curious about the widows’ strata of the singles’ scene for the purpose
of moving closer to the superior attribute of the committed coupled lifestyle.
Notes for 16 – Harv’s youth was injected with doses of
religious education – Capuchins, Sisters of Notre Dame, Diocesan Priests,
Dominican Sisters, and the infamous Jesuits. As an only child, his single
mother never finished elementary school and attained her first library card at
age 70, but never used it. This relative ignorance provided Harv with life,
safety, a work ethic, and a growth structure, although unsupportive and
uncooperative. He was left to his own thought within religious rigidity – he
avoided high profile circumstances. He believed in education and, more
specifically, understanding. Thus, he drained alleys, using his own ax. He
fitted storms to the apartment windows, using his own plane. In engineering
college, he made an extra curricular step toward the Great Books and
epistemology but never read nor understood. In the main, he was a worker,
enamored with creativity and opportunity at graduation (after an extra summer
session). However, he was unsupported by social structure – neither family nor
mentor. Yet, he always progressed in fulfilling his basic needs of existence,
relatedness, and growth. He bought into righteous choices – job, marriage,
children, and responsibility. In humorous hindsight, he was serious about sins
of omission. Moreover, he should have died at his mid-life crisis. He seemed
never satisfied, always striving for recognition. His salutatorian and valedictorian
connections never worked out. Marriage, jobs, and careers were functionally
successful but never politically successful nor self-satisfying. Thus at age 52
he stopped employment, pledging to not move to another job until whatever.
Throughout his life, he sought self-understanding and self-fulfillment rather
than personal wealth or power over others. He exhausted his search for another
life-partner and another religious denomination. He wrote several religious
treatises. At age double nickel, he moved to fulfill his realization not to
live alone. He finished his dissertation – taking ten years (not particularly
unusual). He had a sports career of softball umpiring at 500 games per year.
His developing philosophy of joy-love-freeing began to have staying power in
his life choices. He Home Shared. Then he realized he already had enough money
to retire (he always had low financial needs).He knowingly stepped his way to Central
Florida as the opportunities arose, in the main facilitated by his daughter, son,
and daughter-in-law. He experienced a year of family with the birth of grandson
Lance. Then he was called into local Mobile Homing - in addition to his
previous travel around the nation. For many decades, he consciously worked to
combine hi tech, mobility, and minimalism – thus in hindsight, Mobile Homing
was a logical development. In parallel with the foregoing, came early social
security, then an annuity, and finally Medicare. Those cornerstones were
combined with (1) continual blood donation, (2) the pledge not to succumb to
chasing ill health, and (3) to never be employed again, even for zero pay. At
age double half dozen he accelerates into Mobile Homing – that perhaps becomes
his figurative sculpting of a poor man’s rich life, entitled Liberated Artistry.
LIBERAL ARTS: noun plural 1: the medieval
studies comprising the trivium and quadrivium 2: the studies (as language,
philosophy, history, literature, abstract science) in a college or university
intended to provide chiefly general knowledge and to develop the general intellectual capacities
(reason and judgment) as opposed to professional or vocational skills.
(M-W.com).
ABSTRACT: adjective 1a: disassociated from
any specific instance <abstract entity> b: difficult to understand: ABSTRUSE <abstract problems>
c: insufficiently factual: FORMAL <possessed only an abstract right> 2:
expressing a quality apart from an object <the word poem is concrete, poetry
is abstract> 3a: dealing with a subject in its abstract aspects: THEORETICAL
<abstract science> b: IMPERSONAL,
DETACHED <the abstract compassion of a surgeon -- Time> 4: having
only intrinsic form with little or no attempt at pictorial representation or
narrative content <abstract painting>. (M-W.com).
SCIENCE: noun 1: the state of knowing:
knowledge as distinguished
from ignorance or misunderstanding 2a: a department of systematized
knowledge as an object of study <the science of theology> b: something
(as a sport or technique) that may be studied or learned like systematized
knowledge <have it down to a science> 3a: knowledge or a system of
knowledge covering general truths or the operation of general laws especially
as obtained and tested through scientific method b: such knowledge or such a
system of knowledge concerned with the physical world and its phenomena:
NATURAL SCIENCE 4: a system or method reconciling practical ends with
scientific laws <culinary science> 5 capitalized: CHRISTIAN SCIENCE.
(M-W.com).
SCIENTIFIC METHOD: noun: principles and
procedures for the systematic
pursuit of knowledge involving the recognition and formulation of a
problem, the collection of data through observation and experiment, and the
formulation and testing of hypotheses. (M-W.com).
SYSTEMATIC: adjective 1: relating to or
consisting of a system, 2: presented or formulated as a coherent body of ideas or principles
<systematic thought>, 3a: methodical in procedure or plan <a
systematic approach> <a systematic scholar>, b: marked by thoroughness
and regularity <systematic efforts>, 4: of, relating to, or concerned
with classification; specifically: TAXONOMIC, - systematically adverb, -
systematicness noun. (M-W.com).
HYPOTHESIS: noun 1a: an assumption or
concession made for the sake of argument, b: an interpretation of a practical situation or condition
taken as the ground for action, 2: a tentative assumption made in order
to draw out and test its logical or empirical consequences, 3: the antecedent
clause of a conditional statement, Synonyms HYPOTHESIS, THEORY, LAW mean a
formula derived by inference from scientific data that explains a principle
operating in nature. HYPOTHESIS implies insufficient evidence to provide more
than a tentative explanation <a hypothesis explaining the extinction of the
dinosaurs>. THEORY implies a greater range of evidence and greater likelihood
of truth <the theory of evolution>. LAW implies a statement of order and
relation in nature that has been found to be invariable under the same
conditions <the law of gravitation>. (M-W.com).
Notes for 16a – The writing of the pages of these web
sites has been systematic (definition above), in that the act of publishing
forces structured writing into the open for the entire world to see. However,
the most important seer was Harv his self. Thus the front page, and every
following page, formulates as a hypothesis (definition above) subject to
testing – his rereading and rewriting as the process that puts forth another
hypothesis of one particular self among 100 billion other humans. Therefore,
Harv is not alone.
The process of hypothesis – then testing – then
another hypothesis, ad infinitum, aims at the development of the general
intellectual capacities (as reason and judgment) as within the above definition
of liberal arts. This is why Harv is Harv throughout his entire life of
particulars. Taking in those particulars, Harv is alone.
Therefore, Harv is alone, and therefore Harv is not
alone – thus he enjoys, loves, and frees his self within his delimited
environment. And he continues to develop realizations about his delimited
environment – talk versus no talk, love versus hate, joy versus sorrow, freeing
versus fear, open versus closed, single versus coupled: ad infinitum. Those
distinctions guide Harv to future talk, love, joy, freeing, openness …
REASON: noun 1a: a statement offered in
explanation or justification <gave reasons that were quite satisfactory>,
b: a rational ground or motive <a good reason to act soon>, c: a
sufficient ground of explanation or of logical defense; especially: something
(as a principle or law) that supports a conclusion or explains a fact <the
reasons behind her client's action>, d: the thing that makes some fact intelligible:
CAUSE <the reason for earthquakes> <the real reason why he wanted me
to stay -- Graham Greene>, 2a(1): the power of comprehending, inferring, or thinking
especially in orderly rational ways: INTELLIGENCE, (2): proper exercise
of the mind, (3): SANITY, b: the sum of the intellectual powers, 3 archaic:
treatment that affords satisfaction, - in reason: RIGHTLY, JUSTIFIABLY, -
within reason: within reasonable limits, - with reason: with good cause.
JUDGEMENT:noun 1 a: a formal utterance of an
authoritative opinion, b: an opinion so pronounced, 2a: a formal decision given
by a court, b(1): an obligation (as a debt) created by the decree of a court,
(2): a certificate evidencing such a decree, 3a capitalized: the final judging
of mankind by God, b: a divine sentence or decision; specifically: a calamity
held to be sent by God, 4a: the process of forming an opinion or evaluation by
discerning and comparing, b: an opinion or estimate so formed, 5a: the
capacity for judging: DISCERNMENT, b: the exercise of this capacity, 6: a
proposition stating something believed or asserted; Synonym see SENSE..
As
the web sites’ hosting corporate profit motive pressures Harv to upgrade his
publishing for a price, the free publishing (Netscape) becomes second-class.
November 2004 marks the realization that Harv’s future free publishing will be
limbo instead of heaven (Netscape has revived January 2006). However, e-mail
promises communication “closer to heaven” – talk rather than no talk. The free
publishing is eventually updated but less frequently – perhaps contributing to
a major improvement in writing quality.
LIMBO: noun 1 often capitalized: an abode of
souls that are according to Roman Catholic theology [religious speak] barred
from heaven because of not having received Christian baptism, 2a: a place or
state of restraint or confinement, b: a place or state of neglect or oblivion
<proposals kept in limbo>, c: an intermediate or transitional place or
state, d: a state of uncertainty. (M-W.com).
HEAVEN: noun 1: the expanse of space that
seems to be over the earth like a dome: FIRMAMENT -- usually used in plural, 2a
often capitalized: the dwelling place of the Deity and the joyful abode of the
blessed dead, b: a spiritual state of everlasting communion with God, 3
capitalized: GOD 1, 4: a place or condition of utmost happiness, 5 Christian
Science: a state of thought in which sin is absent and the harmony of divine
Mind is manifest. (M-W.com).
Notes for 15 – “How small this big world.” Harv’s
delimitation of the big world – a set of assets that fit comfortably in a small
car, based around the climate and family in the real Central Florida, extending
out to the National Parks and equivalent of the continental United States and
family in Ohio, Wisconsin, and California, plus the visiting with potential
extended family in those areas.
Notes for 14 – Harv
expands Everlasting Travel to encompass city camping. Son dubs Dad an ‘urban
outdoors person’, eclipsing daughter’s dub of Dad being a ‘lone wolf’. ‘Free
spirit’ was also used in some forgotten context. “Harv begins to negotiate
truth as his personal application of functional organization. He stumbles along
his way, now calling them senior moments - morning, afternoon, and evening –
although he ‘loses’, he is seldom lost.”
Notes for 13 - “Harv
travels ‘weller’ as more pointedly; putting his ‘life sets’ together ‘good’;
but not yet ‘wellest’.”
POINTED: adjective, 1a: having a point...2a:
being to the point: PERTINENT, b: aimed at a particular person or group, 3:
CONSPICUOUS, MARKED <pointed indifference>, - pointedly adverb, -
pointedness noun. (M-W.com).
POINT: noun, 1a(1): an individual detail:
ITEM, (2): a distinguishing detail <tact is one of her strong points>, b:
the most important essential in a discussion or matter <missed the whole
point of the joke>, c: COGENCY..., 3: an end or object to be achieved:
PURPOSE <did not see what point there was in continuing the discussion>,
4a(1): a geometric element of which it is postulated that at least two exist
and that two suffice to determine a line, (2): a geometric element determined
by an ordered set of coordinates, b(1): a narrowly localized place having a
precisely indicated position <walked to a point 50 yards north of the
building>, (2): a particular place: LOCALITY <have come from distant
points>, c(1): an exact moment <at this point I was interrupted>, (2):
a time interval immediately before something indicated: VERGE <at the point
of death>, d(1): a particular step, stage, or degree in development <had
reached the point where nothing seemed to matter anymore>, (2): a definite
position in a scale, 5a: the terminal usually sharp or narrowly rounded part of
something: TIP, b: a weapon or tool having such a part and used for stabbing or
piercing: as (1): ARROWHEAD, (2): SPEARHEAD, c(1): the contact or discharge
extremity of an electric device (as a spark plug or distributor), (2) chiefly
British: an electric outlet, 6a: a projecting usually tapering piece of land or
a sharp prominence, b(1): the tip of a projecting body part, (2): TINE 2, (3)
plural: the extremities or markings of the extremities of an animal especially
when of a color differing from the rest of the body, c(1): a railroad switch,
(2): the tip of the angle between two rails in a railroad frog, d: the head of
the bow of a stringed instrument, 7: a short musical phrase; especially: a
phrase in contrapuntal music, 8a: a very small mark, b(1): PUNCTUATION MARK;
especially: PERIOD, (2): DECIMAL POINT, 9: a lace for tying parts of a garment
together used especially in the 16th and 17th centuries, 10: one of usually 11
divisions of a heraldic shield that determines the position of a charge, 11a:
one of the 32 equidistant spots of a compass card, b: the difference of 11 1/4
degrees between two such successive points, 12: a small detachment ahead of an
advance guard or behind a rear guard..., 14: one of 12 spaces marked off on
each side of a backgammon board, 15: a unit of measurement: as a (1): a unit of
counting in the scoring of a game or contest, (2): a unit used in evaluating
the strength of a bridge hand, b: a unit of academic credit, c(1): a unit used
in quoting prices (as of stocks, bonds, and commodities), (2)plural: a
percentage of the face value of a loan often added as a placement fee or
service charge, (3): a percentage of the profits of a business venture (as a
motion-picture production), d: a unit of about 1/72 inch used especially to
measure the size of type, 16: the action of pointing: as a: the rigidly intent
attitude of a hunting dog marking game for a gunner, b: the action in dancing
of extending one leg and arching the foot so that only the tips of the toes
touch the floor, 17: a position of a player in various games (as lacrosse);
also: the player of such a position, 18: a number thrown on the first roll of
the dice in craps which the player attempts to repeat before throwing a seven
-- compare MISSOUT, PASS 13, 19: credit accruing from creating a good
impression <scored points for hard work>, - beside the point: IRRELEVANT,
- in point of: with regard to: in the matter of <in point of law> <in
point of fact>, - to the point: RELEVANT, PERTINENT <a suggestion that
was to the point>. (M-W.com).
Notes for 12 – Harv
took up the slogan, “Doctor, heal thy self.” His pocket change he described as,
“Harv’s life coin is inscribed ‘no instant genius’, with the flip side reading
‘JLC - excruciating slow in a quick life’.” JLC being joy, love, and clearing –
clearing encompassing the words freeing and freedom. His PhD dissertation:
“Functional organization: Theory W unifies strategy, functionalism, and
structure for members and the individual.”
Exemplification of Harv’s freeing spirit: Gimp PREAMBLE Version 1.2
(November 2002) - The purpose of this License is to make a manual, textbook, or
other functional and useful documents "free" in the sense of freedom:
to assure everyone the effective freedom...
FREEDOM: noun 1: the quality or state of
being free: as a: the absence of necessity, coercion, or constraint in choice
or action, b: liberation from slavery or restraint or from the power of
another: INDEPENDENCE, c: the quality or state of being exempt or released
usually from something onerous <freedom from care>, d: EASE, FACILITY <spoke
the language with freedom>, e: the quality of being frank, open, or
outspoken <answered with freedom>, f: improper familiarity, g: boldness
of conception or execution, h: unrestricted use <gave him the freedom of
their home>, 2a: a political right, b: FRANCHISE, PRIVILEGE; Synonyms
FREEDOM, LIBERTY, LICENSE mean the power or condition of acting without
compulsion. FREEDOM has a broad range of application from total absence of
restraint to merely a sense of not being unduly hampered or frustrated
<freedom of the press>. LIBERTY suggests release from former restraint or
compulsion <the released prisoner had difficulty adjusting to his new
liberty>. LICENSE implies freedom specially granted or conceded and may
connote an abuse of freedom <freedom without responsibility may degenerate
into license>. (M-W.com).
ONEROUS: adjective 1: involving, imposing, or
constituting a burden: TROUBLESOME <an onerous task>, 2: having legal
obligations that outweigh the advantages <onerous contract>, - onerously
adverb, - onerousness noun; Synonyms ONEROUS, BURDENSOME, OPPRESSIVE, EXACTING
mean imposing hardship. ONEROUS stresses being laborious and heavy especially
because distasteful <the onerous task of cleaning up the mess>.
BURDENSOME suggests causing mental as well as physical strain <burdensome
responsibilities>. OPPRESSIVE implies extreme harshness or severity in what
is imposed <the oppressive tyranny of a police state>. EXACTING implies
rigor or sternness rather than tyranny or injustice in the demands made or in
the one demanding <an exacting employer>. (M-W.com).
For example, the Geico insurance process every six months is
burdensome, for every six months there comes an increase in the cost of
insurance. Thus, Harv continues to reduce coverage to hold the cost line relative
to his fixed income. The ultimate risk would be to lose his driver's license.
That event would force Harv out of Mobile Homing and into a retirement
residency.
PHILOSOPHY: noun: 1a(1): all learning
exclusive of technical precepts and practical arts, (2): the sciences and
liberal arts exclusive of medicine, law, and theology <a doctor of
philosophy>, (3): the 4-year college course of a major seminary,
b(1)archaic: PHYSICAL SCIENCE, (2): ETHICS, c: a discipline comprising as its
core logic, aesthetics, ethics, metaphysics, and epistemology, 2a: pursuit of
wisdom b: a search for a general understanding of values and reality by chiefly
speculative rather than observational means, c: an analysis of the grounds of
and concepts expressing fundamental beliefs, 3a: a system of philosophical
concepts, b: a theory underlying or regarding a sphere of activity or thought
<the philosophy of war> <philosophy of science>, 4a: the most
general beliefs, concepts, and attitudes of an individual or group, b: calmness
of temper and judgment befitting a philosopher. (M-W.com).
Notes for 11 - “What
then the cause that brings the effect of super-health emotions? To thine own
self be true – if you can find it.”
Notes for 10 – The modern day Mark Twain – Garrison
Keillor on public radio.
Notes for 9 - “Being or choosing ‘different’ - seldom
judged as holy by the ‘sheep children’, nor the ‘shepherd father’ – the ‘sheep’
are herded to war, terror, and righteousness: personally and en mass (the
instilled force of ultimate truth waylays negotiation). Can Harv negotiate the
truth of 100 billion humans?”
Notes for 8 - “Without definition at the time, he was
a superb Gentleman Host, ne’er to be a husband again, although he speaks of
being ‘instantly’ partnered to that young-spirited lady.”
Notes for 7 - “For Harv, the realities of challenge
and cooperation would remain unrealized for decades.” Three children blossomed
into six - via marriage-forever (of their definition). Children, and grand
kids, seemingly in an instant, stumble upon their way.
Notes for 6 - “Working the joys of anticipation and
actualization.”
Notes for 5 - “The worker adds ‘socialization’ and
carries higher technology into his real world.” One evening Harv set pins for
four alleys on the first shift – at the end of those twenty games he mistakenly
thought it was the end of the night and prepared to go home only to be shaken
to reality and set for ten more games.
Notes for 4 - “There was serenity in that routine.”
“The worker is cast; the artist unrealized.”
Notes for 3 - “Harv put Erector Sets together ‘good’,
thus he matriculated to engineering college to be technically trained for the
local job market.”
Notes for 2 - The gang’s twenty-five year reunion made
front-page news for the major newspaper. Scaled the utility pole, negotiated
the steep roof, entered the small window, descended to the stove top, turned
off the burner that had now melted away the pan bottom, unlocked the door for
the lady, and later got a giant Hershey bar for his ‘troubles’.
Notes for 1 - Harv, from the start, quite
methodically, managed the life given to him. Sixty-five years later, spending
life time with grandson Lance solidified the observation that toddlers do
manage their lives, choosing to build their world in acts of joy, love, and
freedom – as grand-daughter Megan explained to Lisa and Harv in the snow
covered park, “Let’s go ‘sploring’.” After many repetitions, Lisa and Harv
marveled at the pre-schooler’s firm grasp on the idea of exploring, well in
advance of the ability to pronounce the ideation. For Harv, this explains the
crux of the heading that began his lifetime of general self-satisfaction. Just
as Harv continues to step beyond the toddler stage, the availability of Lance
and Megan steps away into the ‘nebulous’ of billions of other humans.
