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Poems by Larry Tilander
Page Seven
Ah Well | Always | And So | Angel | A Nightshade Blanket | Another Year | Ashes | As Two Become As One | At Your Door | Automotivation | A Woman's Prayer | A Younger Me | Baby's Deep Blue Eyes |
Ah Well I guess there are no poet groupies on poetic highs
No screaming, clapping lyric lovers sticky little thighs
A poet laureat's alone, but maybe that is why
He builds a world of words he writes, he hurts, but cannot cry
So perchance if you took my hand you'd take it all from me
Yes, I'm a mental masochist, I need the pain to be
If I could really laugh and cry, play at the normal game
I'd leave this pen, this mental state, no longer be the same
With pen and paper I set forth to make myself be heard
I've learned here I am in control, I ride the written word
Through galaxies of times and space, there's nothing I can't do
Except to find the words I need when I'm alone with you
Always The sun comes poking in the morning and I feel you there
And when I wake up in the night I want to say I care
When I go walking in the garden I can see your face
My love, I know no one will ever fit into your place
I think of you in traffic jams, it helps to clear the mind
You calm my fears and ease my pain, you are on of a kind
Last night I took your picture down and finally I cried
So much alive, and now you're gone, it's three years since you died
And So I knew where you were coming from, I didn't really care
I didn't want you perfect babe, I just wanted you there
I knew that you had been down there, I've pulled myself up too
I didn't crave an angel, no, I tried to be with you
You told me you'd had problems, well, you know I've had a few
I thought the slates had been wiped clean and we could start anew
But you have something deep inside, created from your past
It's like a cancer gnaeing you, your love just couldn't last
You asked that we no longer love, could we just not be friends
I told you that would hurt too much, so here is where it ends
But I still feel a pull to you, so when you finally grow
To be a person I could love I'd really like to know
Angel She said she came an angel to my side
I didn't; how the Hell was I to know
She thought I meant to take her as a bride
I thought she meant to have a little go
She said she was her daddy's Angel Girl
I thought she was sweet young piece of meat
I brought her home and gave her quite a whirl
Believe me, she was some kind of a treat
She showed me that old silver cross she wore
Then dressed in silence, never looked at me
Was shaking as she passed outside my door
I heard the brakes, not watching, didn't see
She said she came an angel to my side
To treat an angel I did not know how
I'm really very sorry that she died
I guess she's with the other angels now
A Nightshade Blanket Nightshade grows close by your tomb
A blanket it is knitting
To keep your dead bones warm in there
When night birds go a flitting
And in my heart love so am I
Amid those pillars cold
My bones they long to shed this flesh
Without you I am old
I pick this nightshade, drink the draught
Your blanket will be mine
Goodnight my love, now sleep with me
Eternal sleep divine
Another Year Another year, another tear
Another smile, a frown, a cheer
Another chance to make new friends
Make someone happy, make amends
Another year, a string of days
To look for joy in many ways
To spend some time with loved ones near
For me to say, "I love you dear."
Ashes I often sit and wonder of the people that I find
How flesh can meet so easily, with never any mind
There is no get-together now, it's really more a bump
Good day, a beer, a boast or two, no more to say, let's hump
I guess there must be nothing left to talk about these days
It's like most minds are covered in a never see through haze
So maybe if my light goes out I'll be a better man
At least I'll be prepared to do what other people can
For now I'll just keep shining onward, try to hide my doubt
If I keep going, never stop, some day I will burn out
I'll join in ignorance and bliss with those who're all around
I'll never know, I'll be too dumb, the happiness I've found
As Two Become As One The language, colour, ceremony, they don't mean a thing
The message is the same and clear with or without a ring
The smiling faces seem to say, "Hey look, my race is won."
All world smiles for a beat as two become as one
Now mother cries and father sighs old suitors morn their loss
The vows are said, the prayers are read, now comes the flower toss
The car drives off, the horns all honk, it's time to have some fun
To shout it out to all the world as two become as one
The dress discarded on the floor, tuxedo by the chair
No ornaments but just their rings, the bride let down her hair
Religion, parties, all forgotten, when all's said and done
This is the sacred moment now as two become as one
So many years on down the road when time has taken toll
They look into each others eyes, the union is still whole
They close their eyes remembering that moment in the sun
They hold each other once again as two become as one
At Your Door I wish I knew a magic art to open up your door
I'm not the narrow minded fool who knocked on it before
This place is sacred to me now, where I rampaged and ranted
I see with eyes come open now this passage is enchanted
Those memories of my vile self, when here I was unkind
Rise up to torture me each day, like acid burns my mind
I will not quibble, will not rage, I will make no demand
Subdued, and waiting by your door, forever I will stand
Automotivation You think you're cool you stupid fool, you race cars in the street
Well let me say, right here today, before you start, you're beat
Oh maybe you can win, it's true, an idiotic race
But cars can kill, perhaps you will end up in sad disgrace
When someone dies before your eyes no winning can repair
The loss of life to child or wife of him who's laying there
Behind the wheel a man can feel a hard to resist thrill
Those tons of steel can really deal swift death, despite your skill
You never know, a patch of snow, or oil may lie ahead
A sudden slide, a sideways ride, and someone winds up dead
A child could lie in blood and die, your own small boy or girl
So pay some heed and watch your speed as down the road you hurl
If you can't chase the urge to race wait 'til you're out of town
On highways clear, with no one near, then put the hammer down
Go do your run and have some fun where no one will be hurt
Just take some care for others there, for danger stay alert
A Woman's Prayer Dear lord please one day grant to me a real holiday
Just twenty four sweet hours where I can relax and play
Someone to drive me where I like and carry things for me
A day with nothing on my list "To Do", a page all free
And let my day please start with well cooked breakfast, served in bed
With no TV to blare at me, just music soft instead
Then after breakfast, rested well, and feeling quite divine
Just lead me to a hot bathtub, then pass the cold dry wine
When I get pruney, dry me off, soft towel, rubbing hard
Then scented, dressed, and made up well, pass me a credit card
When I get tired take me home, prepare the bath again
Serve wine again, and chocolate, then when that's gone down the drain
Dish supper out with candle light, soft music playing still
Then tuck me in all comfy when I climb that wooden hill
And last of all please grant to me a night to sleep in peace
A time in which within myself I find some sweet release
A Younger Me Please let me be a younger me once more
Just pare me down to find that youthful core
The joy in sitting with a picture book
Or building castles in some quiet nook
The faith in Santa and his happy elves
As we age we've no more faith in ourselves
Yes, take me back to happy childhood
Those days when everything was to the good
For lessons learned would come from every turn
And smiles soon replaced the tears that burn
Each raindrop held a universe of fun
Oh pretty, see them sparkle in the sun
But now it's just a grumble at the rain
Please let me be that younger me again
Baby's Deep Blue Eyes There's a mystery there within your deep blue eyes
A meaning that's non-random hidden in your little cries
As you start out I'm wishing you a life that's long and full
Beat the odds and that old uncertainty principle
When life just reaches out and grabs your throat
Just go for a reversal, hang on 'til that's all she wrote
Well time, oh time just flows on, may it flow around you child
And never cloud those deep blue eyes, may they be not defiled
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